He’s a professional magician/street performer. Very cute. Smokes (blah). Half German and half English and is fluent in both (has an English accent *swoon*). Loves Harry Potter. He went on the studio tour but he said he wants to go again with me. His face got so animated talking about it and I just loved watching him get as excited about Harry Potter as I do. He talks A LOT. I spaced out a few times, and got distracted by his cuteness and this cute little thing he does with his tongue in the middle of sentences. Whenever he looked at me after asking me a question, he would bite his lips and look like he wanted to ravish me and not gonna lie, it did things to me.
I initiated the whole thing. We met online, and he told me where he performs. So since I had nothing to do today, I went over there (it’s close to where I live) and after his show went up to him. We got coffee, then went for a drink, then went for dinner. No kiss, I think mostly because we were always in public and didn’t have the chance.
The best part about all this is that he’s seen my blog and read my personal rants and stuff. I didn’t want to show him but he was like “it’s a part of you right? Well I want to know all of you.” Even after reading them, he still likes me. He made lots of references to the posts while talking today. But that’s why I’m writing this on this blog, I don’t know if he’s gonna go back on my main one. Nobody’s gonna bother reading this anyway (and I’m really sorry if you did!)
The main point of this whole thing is that I’m so proud of myself for actually initiating it. The old me would’ve NEVER done this. He wants to see me again and told me to call or text him when I’m free. I definitely will. I don’t see anything long term in terms of relationship with him, but he’s really nice and laid back and I liked spending time with him. So we’ll see.
I would just like to inform you guys that I’ve been on a date this evening. And it’s going pretty well I think. If anything, he’s making future plans for us to hang out so that’s a good sign, right?
Ok wait. I just found out that this guy at work who has Asperger’s has 4 exes. He’s the same age as me. He has been in 4 relationships. I have been in none. He is constantly talking about how he’s so socially awkward and can’t really talk to people. But he’s been in 4 relationships that were all of decent length. I am not socially awkward but I have not been in a single one.
My old suitemate from college never left her room except to get food or go to class. She had no friends in college yet she managed to have 2 relationships during her time there, one of which is still going on.
My old roommate also was very quiet and didn’t have any friends or talk to anyone or go to any social events. She was in a 4 year relationship.
There has got to be something wrong with me. There just has to be. What is it? This is not fair.
And now I’m crying, great ugh.